Showing posts with label chances. Show all posts
Showing posts with label chances. Show all posts

13 Sept 2018

Fabulous, juicy, peachy, bubble butt and all kind of stupid bullshit

13 September 0



When I was a child I didn't like P.E. classes. No, this word is not strong enough. I hated them classes. It has always been a torture for me. I could think about all kind of excuses just to not attend the phisical education. Surprise, as now, when I am 23 years old, I can't imagine my life without fitness and some kind of phisical activity. I will find all kind of excuses just to move my ass from the coach and do something. Ow, and I am also a fitness instructor, jumping trainer and for almost 5 years I have been working in hotels in different coutries fighting to get a possibility to be responsible for the fitness or sport activities for tourists. Isn't life ironic?

Now I have realized what's been a problem back then. And what seems to be a problem now, after all these year. Poeple and nasty bitches. Let's call here the names, let's not hide the truth. I am not news in TV or on the radio, am I? So I am about to tell you what, in my opinion, is the biggest problem for moving you ass and doing something with your life. And I will focus on a fitness, shape etc. part of the topic.

Imagine you're going to the gym. You can already feel them endorphins go up, the adrenaline, this feeling in your body. You're finally doing something to change! To be better! No more looking in the mirror and hating what you see, no more sitting on the couch without a possibility to touch your toes, because your belly is too fat! No more baby ! You made it till the stairs, there's no going back now! You're in! You can do this!

Great, you changed into your new fitness clothes. They smell new, the feel amazing! Ow my! You're on the top of the world, beautiful. Here we go! You enter the room. There are few other people waiting for the instructor to start the class. The atmosphere is pretty awesome. You feel good between all of them people, because they all have the same target as you. And everyone starts somewhere, and you start here. And you know you can do this, because all them people can, and they are here and they will support you or kick your ass when needed. All good!

The instructor puts on the music, smiles and starts the introduction to the class. Wow, she is so nice and she is not judging anyone ! You feel it! Your mind is changing so will your body! Let's do this!

Wait....

The door opens...

Quick check out of the "late" one. She is wearing them tight shorts showing off all her good parts. Nice ass, garage instead of her hips. Nice nice, she was once a beginner too, everything is possible and she can be your motivation. Wait..she enters the room and walks slowly towards the instructor. Slowly, hip side to side. "Watch me I'm fabulous!" says her way of being, because how else to call it. She stands just in front of the instructor. Great, you can follow her moves.

But you slowly start feeling a bit down. Your mood somehow got darker. But it's ok. It will go away, right?

But then you're realizing that the Fab Babe is turning around from time to time to check out what's happening behind her. You can see her glaring at other people, from the feet up and from up to the feet. Ow! There there! You notice that! That bitch is judging every fucking one in this room!. Like who the fuck invited you here!? You realized that you're not the only one who feels a bit overwhelmed by that Fab Babe. Something is changing, and it's not gonna be good.

The class is coming to an end and you feel good. Good, but not amazing. Not the way you felt when you're entering the gym, walking up the stairs, getting ready and putting this amazing outfit on. No, it's just ok. Should you give up?

No! Fuck sake, never! And here comes the problem, do you understand me?! And it's been following you since early school years. There's always this Fab Babe, this judging bitch, the monster, who thinks she is better, she can do more and heavier! Jeez, bitch, calm your tits down and park your airplane somewhere else! We are all here to enjoy our time and change something with ourselves and you ain't gonna stop it by being bitchy!

Ok, fine. You look great We all can see that. But just because you're a bit further with your jurney doesn't mean you have to put others down and push them down the pillar, is it. Honestly, you've beens tarting once too and you're where you are because you had people who were pulling you or pushing you to move forward, right? So open your eyes and wash this bitchiness off your face, because putting other's down or judging them from your point of view won't make you a better person, won't give you any bigger hips or others smaller. Got it?!

It's been like this since the primary school, remember?
Fat or bigger kid never wanted to change in front of the others. The slower runner didn't want to run with other kids. The girls with the bigger/smaller boobs didn't want other girls nor boys to see her in a P.E. uniform and this boy with weirdly long legs never came for the calss. Did anything change?

Yes, our age. But everything else stayed the same.

And why? Because of you judging bitches who can not mind their own business and hold their own butts. Again, next time you want to judge-look at someone close your eyes and recall how you used to look like and what it was like when you were at the beginning of your journey.

Thank you.
Goodnight.
Fuck off.

9 Jul 2018

Buy that Tequila, take your shoes off and go for a walk on a beach. You might end up swimming with dolphins.

09 July 0


10/09/2014

"Today was better. I decided to be happy. No one cares if something is bothering you. Fuck this. I prefer to chose happiness and smile over this whole negativity which is already poisoning the world. I am throwing all the sadness away from my head. It's time to start enjoying my life. It's time to be happy.

1. If you don't chase after what you want - you will never get it;
2. If you don't ask - the answer will always be "no";
3. If you don't make a step forward - you will always be in the same place;

I am fighting for my dreams, for what I believe in. To make my life important. To wake up every morning with a smile on my face. What's in the past, is in the past and should stay there. It will never come back and it doesn't mean it's a bad thing. You have to move forward and keep your head high. With the effy smile on you face. (And the bottle of Tequila in your hand)."



25 Jun 2018

I found my diary, so now you will hear my story

25 June 6


Link
Hello everyone. As you can see in the title I found my diary. My notes from few years back. I decided to post some of them. To share some of my thoughts with you, my fears, my hopes, my dreams. I won't change a thing. Even if some words scare me, even if some of them might come from my heart, my soul. I've got nothing to hide and I've got my world to share. Maybe you're dealing with some problems at the moment, maybe you're struggling or maybe you're on the top of the mountain called "life". Who knows. I don's. But no matter where you are right now, how you feel I hope I can help you. Or maybe you can help me or someone else. Who knows. We will see.

Reading this remember that time passed already. I might not be the same person now. I might not be dealing with same problems. But I've been there, I felt that and I want you to know that maybe at some point we were feeling the same thing, we were struggling with the same problems. I want you to know my story and after reading it I want you to create your own and never give up. No matter what.

Let's begin. 

02/09/2014

"They say it gets easier when you write. 
And I am thinking a lot. Much too much. 
About my life, my appearance, people…
I don't like people. That's my little problem. 
They drive me crazy. And I am trying to change it.

I am a mess right now.
I feel nothing.
No happiness, no sadness, no anger.
I am empty inside.
I think I am falling apart.
I need someone to put my pieces together."


10 Jun 2018

Once upon a time on Cyprus

10 June 1

Hello there! So I decided it’s the right time to continue with my story.
going back to my time on Cyprus, when it has all begun
I was an innocent girl. Just graduated from high school,
all excited about going to uni! Yaay.
Never have had a boyfriend in my life,
got drunk once when 16 with my mom
and her mom on the balcony in Bulgaria.
Never took drugs, never run away from home.
Skipping school on every occasion possible,
but every time telling my parents about it or asking plans with my mom.
Why would I go to school if I could go for some shopping and coffee?
Couldn’t be bothered. I wasn’t stupid tho. I was doing quite well in school.
I wasn’t making any problems, except being an antisocial smartass.
But what’s wrong with that?

I remember it like it was yesterday.
I went to some kind of a party organized by my school
and I went to hide from all the people to the "sitting room" underground.I was drinking and I started chatting with one of my colleagues.
I remember the moment he asked me something about the university community
and joining some kind of circles and me saying
"I would like that if I wasn't going to Cyprus in 3 days".
He's eyes got big like a plate of your grandma when she's trying to feed you.
And that was it.


I booked my flight, packed the suitcase of 23kg and just left.
Left my Polish life, my "friends", family
and all this things I have been working on for a quite long time.
But I wasn't attached to anything, to anyone.
It was one of the easiest decisions I've ever made in my life.
Can you imagine?
Leaving everything and starting all over being so easy?
It can be when you've got nothing to lose, when you've got nothing to regret.
What could have gone wrong? Only everything haha.
But I was 18 and I couldn't give a smaller shit.

Especially that I lost one of my good friends back then.
No, she hasn't died nor moved out.
She turned her back on me.
Yes, I am talking about you.
When I told her I was going to Cyprus, when I told her about my plans
looking for some kind of support from her side, for "you'll do great Nat".
You know what I received?
She gave me one of this looks 
"I am better than you" and said "well...guess who will have a better education over here..."
And that was it. After that she stopped talking to me, like she's never known me.
Till today's day we talk. Or more like we remember about each other on our birthday.
Year by year one message. On her birthday from me and on my day from her. And that's what's left from our "friendship".
We had our moments tho, haven't we?


And you know what? Here is when my life truly begun.
When I became my true self.
And if I could go back in time I wouldn't change a single...well,
I wouldn't change that much.
It made me who I am now and I am kind of amazing person right now.
And I've earned so much more than just money.
And that's something you don't measure with the size of your wallet.
It is something you don't dream of but when it happens it becomes something
that should always be your birthday wish

TO START LIVING.
AND YOU DO.
AND YOU NEVER REGRET THAT.


2 Jun 2018

Are you afraid to try?

02 June 12

You are asking yourself what would happened if you tried.
I am asking you what if you didn't ?

I do not understand why so many people use to think that everything comes easy in life. You might think that it's enough to ask for the Moon to get the Moon. It's enough to fuck that reach guy to get that red car. And if I want to get higher in the hierarchy I just have to know some people, sleep with others and drag down the weak ones.

Isn't that true?

You tell me you want to see a sunrise walking on the seaside, but you tend to turn off an alarm when it wakes you up at 4 in the morning. You tell me you want to see the Eiffel Tower, but you don't try to save any money for a trip.

They want a drivers' licence, but they don't sign themselves for a course. They want to write a book, but they wait. They always wait. For a better moment; an inspiration; for a husband to go to work; kids to grow up. They wait for better times. And them times might never come by.

People are forgetting that to get something, which is valuable for them, sometimes they have to be prepare for some bigger sacrifices . Are they afraid to try?

Are you afraid to try?

I want you to understand one thing. I want you to understand that living your life is not an egoism That trying won't make you a loser. Can you do it?

You should know that egoism appears when you crave for other person to live according to your preferences, live for your vanity, for your gain, profit; to pleasure you. When you force someone to do things for you, which won't make them happy or won't have any positive resonance on their life.

Living your life is not an egoism.
The same as a red rose is not selfish because it wants to be a red rose, you won't be called selfish for living your life and being who you truly want to be.

Sit down for a moment, breath in and think.
Think and tell me how would you rather live? With a regret that you gave up on something, you didn't take a chance on in a moment that you could have succeeded or with a thought that you failed, but at least you have tried your best to reach the point?

If you wont't keep going, you’ll never know how far you could have gone and you’ll miss out on being the person you’d become through the effort itself.

! IF YOU WANT SOMETHING YOU BETTER MAKE SOME NOISE !