Showing posts with label beautiful. Show all posts
Showing posts with label beautiful. Show all posts

13 Sept 2018

Fabulous, juicy, peachy, bubble butt and all kind of stupid bullshit

13 September 0



When I was a child I didn't like P.E. classes. No, this word is not strong enough. I hated them classes. It has always been a torture for me. I could think about all kind of excuses just to not attend the phisical education. Surprise, as now, when I am 23 years old, I can't imagine my life without fitness and some kind of phisical activity. I will find all kind of excuses just to move my ass from the coach and do something. Ow, and I am also a fitness instructor, jumping trainer and for almost 5 years I have been working in hotels in different coutries fighting to get a possibility to be responsible for the fitness or sport activities for tourists. Isn't life ironic?

Now I have realized what's been a problem back then. And what seems to be a problem now, after all these year. Poeple and nasty bitches. Let's call here the names, let's not hide the truth. I am not news in TV or on the radio, am I? So I am about to tell you what, in my opinion, is the biggest problem for moving you ass and doing something with your life. And I will focus on a fitness, shape etc. part of the topic.

Imagine you're going to the gym. You can already feel them endorphins go up, the adrenaline, this feeling in your body. You're finally doing something to change! To be better! No more looking in the mirror and hating what you see, no more sitting on the couch without a possibility to touch your toes, because your belly is too fat! No more baby ! You made it till the stairs, there's no going back now! You're in! You can do this!

Great, you changed into your new fitness clothes. They smell new, the feel amazing! Ow my! You're on the top of the world, beautiful. Here we go! You enter the room. There are few other people waiting for the instructor to start the class. The atmosphere is pretty awesome. You feel good between all of them people, because they all have the same target as you. And everyone starts somewhere, and you start here. And you know you can do this, because all them people can, and they are here and they will support you or kick your ass when needed. All good!

The instructor puts on the music, smiles and starts the introduction to the class. Wow, she is so nice and she is not judging anyone ! You feel it! Your mind is changing so will your body! Let's do this!

Wait....

The door opens...

Quick check out of the "late" one. She is wearing them tight shorts showing off all her good parts. Nice ass, garage instead of her hips. Nice nice, she was once a beginner too, everything is possible and she can be your motivation. Wait..she enters the room and walks slowly towards the instructor. Slowly, hip side to side. "Watch me I'm fabulous!" says her way of being, because how else to call it. She stands just in front of the instructor. Great, you can follow her moves.

But you slowly start feeling a bit down. Your mood somehow got darker. But it's ok. It will go away, right?

But then you're realizing that the Fab Babe is turning around from time to time to check out what's happening behind her. You can see her glaring at other people, from the feet up and from up to the feet. Ow! There there! You notice that! That bitch is judging every fucking one in this room!. Like who the fuck invited you here!? You realized that you're not the only one who feels a bit overwhelmed by that Fab Babe. Something is changing, and it's not gonna be good.

The class is coming to an end and you feel good. Good, but not amazing. Not the way you felt when you're entering the gym, walking up the stairs, getting ready and putting this amazing outfit on. No, it's just ok. Should you give up?

No! Fuck sake, never! And here comes the problem, do you understand me?! And it's been following you since early school years. There's always this Fab Babe, this judging bitch, the monster, who thinks she is better, she can do more and heavier! Jeez, bitch, calm your tits down and park your airplane somewhere else! We are all here to enjoy our time and change something with ourselves and you ain't gonna stop it by being bitchy!

Ok, fine. You look great We all can see that. But just because you're a bit further with your jurney doesn't mean you have to put others down and push them down the pillar, is it. Honestly, you've beens tarting once too and you're where you are because you had people who were pulling you or pushing you to move forward, right? So open your eyes and wash this bitchiness off your face, because putting other's down or judging them from your point of view won't make you a better person, won't give you any bigger hips or others smaller. Got it?!

It's been like this since the primary school, remember?
Fat or bigger kid never wanted to change in front of the others. The slower runner didn't want to run with other kids. The girls with the bigger/smaller boobs didn't want other girls nor boys to see her in a P.E. uniform and this boy with weirdly long legs never came for the calss. Did anything change?

Yes, our age. But everything else stayed the same.

And why? Because of you judging bitches who can not mind their own business and hold their own butts. Again, next time you want to judge-look at someone close your eyes and recall how you used to look like and what it was like when you were at the beginning of your journey.

Thank you.
Goodnight.
Fuck off.
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11 Jul 2018

Angelina Jolie lost 10kg; The new detoxing diet; This new foundation will make your face unrecognized!

11 July 0


Who cares?


Honestly, sometimes I don't know what to write anymore. If I tell you about magic of Tenerife, would you be interested? If I write about that time when I saw dolphins "talking" to whales, would you stay? If I don't inform you about the new drama in show business, would my entry attract you? What should one write about to get to the audience? Diets? Hair? Cosmetics? What if I don't want to? What if I don't feel it?

Have you realized how this world is changing? In which way we are going? Doesn't it all seem kind of fucked up to you?

We live in a world full of bullshit. Let's call the things by their names, ok? I've got the feeling that all the rules and values are day by day disappearing. We are getting closer to the day, when it will all be gone. 

If I go out with some colleagues for a beer you don't want to talk about what I believe in, what I've been through, where I went or where I broke my nose. You don't care what's important to me, what makes me happy, what breaks my heart in pieces. No. Why would you. You've got your own life, your own problems and shit going on, don't you? But why don't you mind talking about this new dress you saw in H&M last week? Why do you want to keep complaining about your boyfriend and how he never buys you flowers, even tho he took you to your favourite restaurant few days back. But who cares, no one cares about good things. Let's just show everyone that our life is worse than theirs.

If I tell you I got promoted, I am going for a long trip or that I am very happy, because my dog finally stopped peeing on the floor, you will turn your head away or make a stupid excuss to leave, because I am happy and you don't want to hear about it. Happiness is boring, isn't it?

But if I start talking about this new episode of Warsaw Shore, you'll somehow have so many things to say on this topic. And have you seen this new lifeguard? Isn't he a hottie? And Jessica from high school got fat, you know that already. Mathiew got divorced, I am sure he deserved that. Ow ow ow wait! There's also this other thing! Angelina Jolie lost 10kg! She must be starving herself!

And if I tell you I don't give a single shit about stuff like that, we suddenly have got nothing in common. Because you don't want to talk about personal stuff. About my life, your life. Things that actually matter. 


People are starting to close themselves in. Small talks are easy, because they don't show our true selves. But don't they really? If you can talk about the new colors of the nail polishes, that new hair treatment or Mathiew's divorce, but can not give your opinion about dogs being thrown out of the cars every single day, about your dreams and goals, about the future or about things that make you happy, what kind of person does it make you? 

People don't talk anymore. They do not communicate in a right way. Because sending few messages on facebook in a week is not a right way, ok? Sending me a snapchat from your breakfast is not ok. It is not how it supposed to be, where it supposed to go! It's just not right! 

Call, meet for a coffee, go for a walk. But talk. And talk about things that matter. Things that are important. There is so many people right now afraid of saying what they thing to be judged. And everyone does. We judge people for simple things and then we are surprised they are afraid to tell us their secrets. Even if it's about their favourite cake or dog's name. We don't share any personal info, because everything could be used against us, wouldn't it?! 

And is it supposed to be this way!? Should people be afraid to speak!? Should people hide in their insides, keep their deepest thoughts?! Are YOU afraid to speak?

I say no! And I want you to think about it this way.

If you keep throwing things to the fire, it will never stop burning. The same is with us, human beings. If we will be keeping all things to ourselves, if we won't have a chance to put some things away, to clear our mind, to talk, we will keep throwing things to our fire and then, one day, we will explode or everything will burn. And we can't let that happen. 


So don't be afraid. If you feel sad, say it. Say what is bothering you. If you're happy, share with the world. Share your happiness and let other be happy with you. If you want to cry, cry as much and as long as you want. There will be someone next to you who will hold your hand, because we are not made of rock. We are breaking sometimes and it's ok. If you wanna jump, jump as high as possible. If you jump, you live. And the Earth is a beautiful place to do so, we just have to understand that and fight our fears, open ourselves to impossible. Smile a bit more, laugh a bit harder and hug a bit more often :)


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9 Jul 2018

Buy that Tequila, take your shoes off and go for a walk on a beach. You might end up swimming with dolphins.

09 July 0


10/09/2014

"Today was better. I decided to be happy. No one cares if something is bothering you. Fuck this. I prefer to chose happiness and smile over this whole negativity which is already poisoning the world. I am throwing all the sadness away from my head. It's time to start enjoying my life. It's time to be happy.

1. If you don't chase after what you want - you will never get it;
2. If you don't ask - the answer will always be "no";
3. If you don't make a step forward - you will always be in the same place;

I am fighting for my dreams, for what I believe in. To make my life important. To wake up every morning with a smile on my face. What's in the past, is in the past and should stay there. It will never come back and it doesn't mean it's a bad thing. You have to move forward and keep your head high. With the effy smile on you face. (And the bottle of Tequila in your hand)."

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15 Jun 2018

No one will die for you and no one should tell you how to live. Once upon a time on Cyprus part 2.

15 June 4
It's almost 4am and I can't shut my brain off. My eyes are not a problem here. I have been closing them milion times already, but nothing helps. My brain just doesn't want to sleep. In this case I decided to write a post, go back to my life on Cyprus. Already I am truly apologizing for all the mistakes I will make and I am sure there will be more than few.

So here I am. 18 years old (nearly 19) girl, who just quit from her university to start a completely new life, new adventures, new everything. How exciting, isn't it? 
What I remember from my first few days it's complete disorientation. I haven't had a clue what was going on. 
I think I had like 2 weeks of holidays before I started working, because they had to deal with all the papers and it's been taking like for eveer. I am not joking. But I had some time to get some color, get around the island, or at least the closest area and, well, some tan. Trust me, as a Polish person I've been pale like a snow. And you don't need that kind of negativity when moving to Cyprus.

Ow there is also one more thing I remember. I got to Paphos, the town that in a short time would become my home for next 9 months, and I have been looking for my apartment called Anthousa (I had a small paper with and adres, nothings else). After hours of walking (as it seemed for me back then) in 40 degrees heat, I stood next to some apartments completely exhausted almost giving up on finding mine and preparing myself to sleep on the street surrounded by milion cats and decided to....listen listen….ask for help. Daaamn ! Yes, me, Natalia the woman who never asks, made her mind and went to few woman standing in front of the gate and asked "I am sorry but is it possible that you might know how could I get to Anthousa?". They looked at me in kind of weird way let's say, turned around and showed me the building just behind them saying "emmmm...that's here". OK guys! Not my fault that all the buildings looked the same and probably I have passed that one 20 times, but. I found it. That's the point. Ok ? And that's how my first day looked like. Exhausting. But wait wait wait. I am not done here. I got to my amazing room with huge terrace, 2 beds, kitchen, bathroom and all beautifully prepared and...I took a shower, changed and went for even longer walk to discover what was around me. And trust me, it was amazing, beautiful, breath-taking. I was starting to fall in love with the island and I kept falling in love with it every single day.

I started my work as an entertainer, my first boss was a total bitch who didn't like to work nor cared about people, but my team was pretty awesome and we were sticking together with almost everything (not if it's about kids club and staying there with kids, because trust me, I didn't want to be seen over there. Nah. One kid and Natalia was gone. No excuses. I've got nothing to say in my defence. I just wasn't happy there). But all the rest? We were THE team. We were great. Lucky for as that at the end of the season we got sent a new boss, who was like an Angel comparing to the first one. Thank you for that.

And I have to tell you all them 9 months on the island were amazing. (it's like being pregnant with Cyprus haha). All the people I have met, all the parties I attended, all the mistakes I made and all the decisions I took were worth everything. Yes, all the mistakes. And I know I made loads of them on my first season of entertainment. Come on ! I was 18/19 years old girl starting her life all over again! I have been allowed to make mistakes and stupid things! Hey! Bad decisions make good stories! And trust me if I say so. I know more than you think about it.


Stealing a stool from the bar street? Coming back home at 8am and starting job at 9am? Finding a drunk English guy on my balcony and the next day a cat in my bed? Adopting a sick Reggae dog for couple of days and seeing him and the most ugly beautiful thing? Experiencing new things for the first time and being there for your best of the best friends when she did too? Meeting my sister from another mister and adopting her? Swimming in the see at 4 in the morning and coming back on the bikes with your bras hanging from and drying on the air when greeting a stranger who decided to go for a jogging at that time? Screaming at your Romanian neighbour, because she was just so stupid? Stealing WiFi from other neighbours, because why not? Hiding in the office, because you just couldn't handle some guests in the hotel and you were just over everything? Getting this first tattoo done and then doing aquagym in the 45 degrees heat? Doing table tennis activity completely hangover and then almost passing out on aquagym, because you just drunk too much the night before? Ow and celebrating your fake birthday with 23 shots of tequila? 

Been there done that! (And that's just a bottom of the mountain we have built.)

And yes, I do regret few things I've done on the island and I should be sorry for doing the others...but I am so not! I wouldn't change it for anything, because those are the things you could, but shouldn't tell your grandchildren. But they will stay with me forever and they made me who I am now and no, if I could go back and change something I wouldn't. Why should I? Something made me do what I have done back then and that's alright. I am happy. I was happy back then, on the magical island, in the magical town called Paphos. And I would love to go back there one day and see how it would look for me right now. After years of experience, after getting older, after living a bit more.

And that is what I want you to learn from that story.

LIVE YOUR LIFE. 
No matter what. No matter what other people might or might not think or do. It's your life and no one will die for you so no one should ever tell you how to live it! 
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13 May 2018

Isn't it too early?

How many times have you been asked if it wasn't too early for anything? You want to start riding a bike. Isn't it too early? You want to try ice cream for the first time. Isn't it too early? You want to go for a trip with your friends. You want to start this big project. You want to move out form your parents. You want to ask her/him out. You want to kiss them. Move in together. Buy a dog. Leave uni before graduation. Make a big decision. Isn't it too early? Isn't it too early? 
Isn't it too effy early?!
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It is alway too early for something for someone.
It is always better to wait, than do something too early, in a rush, catching the moment. Isn't that true?

B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T

There is so many bullshit theories in this world created by people without any hope, dreams, goals or ideas about something. One of them is this beautiful question "Isn't it too early?". 

Honestly, think once. Just once. Would you rather accept it and admit that it is better to wait for the perfect moment or would you rather eat that cake, which is just waiting in front of you? 

Don't get me wrong, I am not pushing anyone to anything. There are things that might be worth waiting. I am not convincing anyone to copulate, make quick decisions, change their life etc etc in a rush. No wories. There is time for everything, but it won't last for ever. Nothing ever does. It might be too early to make the step, but later on it could be already too late. You don't want to waste a given chance, do you?
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So buy this plance ticket, eat tht chocolote cake, kiss that girl, tell your dad you love him, get that dog you always wanted, buy this house with the beautiful garden, let your daughter go on that date with that guy she always wanted, let your mom quit that job she hated so much, grab his butt, tell your brother he matters, move out, start new, come back to the old. Whatever you want just do it, because one may say it is too early, that you should wait, but what if tomorrow it will be just your past? What if you wake up on Monday just with dreams and broken hopes? The time flies fast, too fast. And there is no moment to be wasted, there is not smile to be missed or coffee to be drunk. There is now or never, because you never now how much more have you got left in here. We never know. So trust yourself and let your kite fly.
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8 May 2018

I am coming home.

I always wanted my life to be exciting, without any routine. I thought that was the only way to fall in love with it and to live. I never wanted my days to be the same and I was running away from the system wake up-eat-work-eat-sleep etc. I was scared that if my days weren't different one from another, I would never find the real happines. So what have I done? At age of 19 I left for my first adventure, Cyprus. I became an entertainer in the hotel, so as you can imagine, there was not a single day without surprises. We were enjoying out lives, each day, each night. Everything was exciting. Everyday we were meeting new people, as there were new guests in the hotel, new crazy stramgers on the bar streets, new ideas, new stupid decisions. And the life has been going this way for almost 4 years. Every few months I was changing the place I have been living in, I was meeting new people and making new stupid decisions, which made my life more...fun, I guess. I always thought that this was the way the humans should go through this world, that the people who live just to go to work, earn money and sleep are just wasting their lives. What's te point of living if you're stuck in one city, with the same people and places every single day. No one can be happy existing like this. At least that's what I thought.


I couldn't be more wrong.


Ok maybe not about "wake up work sleep" theory, because I still believe that this is not the way to do it, to live. But now I know there is no need to change every month the city, the people, the job. That won't make me happy, that wouldn't make you happy, I think. 



Walking down the streets of Prague with my best friend on my side and her boyfriend on her side with her puppy following our steps and seeing her being so so happy I realized something very important. 


It's not about the changes, it's not about the places, the people, the job. It's all in your head, it is not real, it is not important. Why would you like to move if you're happy? Why would you like to change if something brings you smile on your face? The deal is to find that ONE place, ONE person, ONE job, which will make you feel something different. Because when you do, when you finally find a place, which you will be able to call "home", because that is what you feel in your heart, you won't be seeking anything different. 

I don't say "keep it same keep it simple", because small changes are good. But don't think that your life depends on that. Sometimes old things are much better than something "improved" or "modified". If you want to change that old bed you've been sleeping on since years, move the kitchen table, put some plants on the window, cut your hair, stop eating vanilla ice-cream and try the banana ones, don't be scared to try new things, to change. But at the same time don't be afraid to settle. Don't be afraid of the routine in your life, because sometimes it may be the best thing that will happen to you in a day. 

You wake up with a bed hair day. You're late to work. You forgot to buy the coffee. Your car does't want to start. The bus didn't arrive on time. You made your suit dirty with this donut from the street seller. You lost your phone. You broke the heel. Your mom is still pushing on this wedding. 
Bum.




He's hugging you.

She's smiling at you.

He comes to listen.

They want to meet.

You try to help.





She, He, They, You. That's what matter. Those are the people, who no matter what will bring your soul up, will cheer you up, will make a change. And that's the important difference you can be seeking for in your life. You don't need a flight ticket or a new job for that. Because life can be hard, can throw shit in front of you or give you lemons and no tequila. But that's ok. Nothing and no one is perfect. No one's life is perfect, even if they do say that online. Instagram, Facebook...that can fool you and you can feel like you deserve more. If she could go to Hawaii, why are you stuck in this small town with no KFC?! If he can purpose, why are you still wanking under the table dreaming of the perfect girlfriend? 

First of all, you don't have to. You can bring a difference if you want to. You can have it all if you try, if you do something about it. But just because she looks good in this blue dress it doesn't mean it'd be your colour. It could make you fat. So don't try to change your life, just because someone else's is different. Chase your own happiness, own dreams and goals. But don't depend on changes and don't make the same mistake as I did.

I was so focused on making my life exciting, special, that I wasn't able to be happy about simple things, which were happening on a daily basis. I was chasing impossible, trying to run away from the routine. Don't get me wrong, as I do not dare to complain, I loved my life the way it was and I am happy about almost every decision I made in my life. It made me who I am, it built me. But it also made me realize that sometimes the most beautiful things and the most beautiful life is waiting just in front of you. I was blind thinking that the plane ticket would change my life, would make me happier. It has. Every time. But then when I was changing and had to start everything from the beginning...I was left with nothing. I had to start from the big zero. Every time when I was going "home" I had to look for myself over and over again. I have never had my own own place for a longer. I had apartments, rooms etc. but it was never for a long term, I was always prepared for something new, for a change.. Now I know everyone needs their base. The place you could call home and in which you could put this ugly picture on the wall, this fluffy rug next to your bed, the star wars' collection. Who cares if it's ugly, pointless, if it's a waste. It is YOURS. This one thing you don't ever have to change. And that's what matters. 


You don't need a crowd of people to feel happy and mostly you won't feel happy in a crowd of people. Too many is sometimes too much. Sometimes simplicity is the answer. Sometimes just one smile is all you need.


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