Capture The Moment

Who cares?

Honestly, sometimes I don't know what to write anymore. If I tell you about magic of Tenerife, would you be interested? If I write about that time when I saw dolphins "talking" to whales, would you stay? If I don't inform you about the new drama in show business, would my entry attract you? What should one write about to get to the audience? Diets? Hair? Cosmetics? What if I don't want to? What if I don't feel it?

Have you realized how this world is changing? In which way we are going? Doesn't it all seem kind of fucked up to you?

We live in a world full of bullshit. Let's call the things by their names, ok? I've got the feeling that all the rules and values are day by day disappearing. We are getting closer to the day, when it will all be gone. 

If I go out with some colleagues for a beer you don't want to talk about what I believe in, what I've been through, where I went or where I broke my nose. You don't care what's important to me, what makes me happy, what breaks my heart in pieces. No. Why would you. You've got your own life, your own problems and shit going on, don't you? But why don't you mind talking about this new dress you saw in H&M last week? Why do you want to keep complaining about your boyfriend and how he never buys you flowers, even tho he took you to your favourite restaurant few days back. But who cares, no one cares about good things. Let's just show everyone that our life is worse than theirs.

If I tell you I got promoted, I am going for a long trip or that I am very happy, because my dog finally stopped peeing on the floor, you will turn your head away or make a stupid excuss to leave, because I am happy and you don't want to hear about it. Happiness is boring, isn't it?

But if I start talking about this new episode of Warsaw Shore, you'll somehow have so many things to say on this topic. And have you seen this new lifeguard? Isn't he a hottie? And Jessica from high school got fat, you know that already. Mathiew got divorced, I am sure he deserved that. Ow ow ow wait! There's also this other thing! Angelina Jolie lost 10kg! She must be starving herself!

And if I tell you I don't give a single shit about stuff like that, we suddenly have got nothing in common. Because you don't want to talk about personal stuff. About my life, your life. Things that actually matter. 

People are starting to close themselves in. Small talks are easy, because they don't show our true selves. But don't they really? If you can talk about the new colors of the nail polishes, that new hair treatment or Mathiew's divorce, but can not give your opinion about dogs being thrown out of the cars every single day, about your dreams and goals, about the future or about things that make you happy, what kind of person does it make you? 

People don't talk anymore. They do not communicate in a right way. Because sending few messages on facebook in a week is not a right way, ok? Sending me a snapchat from your breakfast is not ok. It is not how it supposed to be, where it supposed to go! It's just not right! 

Call, meet for a coffee, go for a walk. But talk. And talk about things that matter. Things that are important. There is so many people right now afraid of saying what they thing to be judged. And everyone does. We judge people for simple things and then we are surprised they are afraid to tell us their secrets. Even if it's about their favourite cake or dog's name. We don't share any personal info, because everything could be used against us, wouldn't it?! 

And is it supposed to be this way!? Should people be afraid to speak!? Should people hide in their insides, keep their deepest thoughts?! Are YOU afraid to speak?

I say no! And I want you to think about it this way.

If you keep throwing things to the fire, it will never stop burning. The same is with us, human beings. If we will be keeping all things to ourselves, if we won't have a chance to put some things away, to clear our mind, to talk, we will keep throwing things to our fire and then, one day, we will explode or everything will burn. And we can't let that happen. 

So don't be afraid. If you feel sad, say it. Say what is bothering you. If you're happy, share with the world. Share your happiness and let other be happy with you. If you want to cry, cry as much and as long as you want. There will be someone next to you who will hold your hand, because we are not made of rock. We are breaking sometimes and it's ok. If you wanna jump, jump as high as possible. If you jump, you live. And the Earth is a beautiful place to do so, we just have to understand that and fight our fears, open ourselves to impossible. Smile a bit more, laugh a bit harder and hug a bit more often :)

"We started October with a Boom! On the 1st day of this month we have been woken up by some noise on the balcony. I stood up, I pulled away the curtains and there he was....a half-naked guy! WTF!? I am running to the other side to close the balcony, but the door were broken! I go to wake up R. What the fuck is going on!?

After few moment of putting ourselves together, R decided to go outside onto the balcony to ask him what he was doing there and how he ended up in our apartment at 6 in the morning! He knew shit! He was still recovering from the night before.  His trousers where ripped and his phone broken. (What You need to know is that out balcony is located kind of high and it's barely possible to get on it. But he managed. Doesn't matter.)

We found his room card in his pockets and, as mature and responsible adults, we decided to walk him back to his hotel, because...why not. We left him there and came back to out apartment to get ready to work. Funny story. In Poland I would probably scream, call the police, go crazy. And here?! What else can happen on this island?

One day you find a cat under your bed, and the other there is a stranger on your balcony. Why not. YOLO."

"Today was better. I decided to be happy. No one cares if something is bothering you. Fuck this. I prefer to chose happiness and smile over this whole negativity which is already poisoning the world. I am throwing all the sadness away from my head. It's time to start enjoying my life. It's time to be happy.

1. If you don't chase after what you want - you will never get it;

2. If you don't ask - the answer will always be "no";

3. If you don't make a step forward - you will always be in the same place;

I am fighting for my dreams, for what I believe in. To make my life important. To wake up every morning with a smile on my face. What's in the past, is in the past and should stay there. It will never come back and it doesn't mean it's a bad thing. You have to move forward and keep your head high. With the effy smile on you face. (And the bottle of Tequila in your hand)."